I Miss You My Sweet Sister

I miss you being around
I miss you to just joke around with
.....bicker with
.....poke at
.....and be poked
.....giggle with
.....cry on
.....and having a sister who is right by my side.

I miss the fragrance of vanilla.....that is you steal from my room
I miss the dangle of your earings.
I miss the sweetness of your smile and the comfort of your hug.
I miss the bubbles of your laugh that pop on me and send tingles to my mouth that burst in joy
I miss your ups and downs; your highs and lows; the unpredictability of being you.
I miss the warmth of your presence and the beat of your life
I miss my sweet sister, my friend in a distant prarie.

Take care of her new fellow, and be her knight in shining armour.
Take care of her new fellow, and be her shoulder to cry on and the arms to embrass her.
Take care of her new fellow, and let the corners or your mouth move upwards when you are near her.
Take care of her new fellow and bring her home to me once more

I love you my sweet sister and am waiting in anticipation to see the beauty of your being.

July

Well, I have been introduced to some new sweet music, by a new friend of mine. I thought I would share one song with you. I'm not quite sure what this song is about, but it reminds me of my favorite movie, I am Sam. The easyness of the song and just the tune. It is great. I thought the imagery is fabulous too. I hope you enjoy it. It is called July.
July, (Mundy: 24 Star Hotel)

Uruguay again?

So, I never ever posted about my Uruguay adventure, and I thought, hey, what the heck. I mind as well show you where I was, over three quarters of a year ago. I guess I've been reminded of it, since I recently was reunited with my great friend Steve, who I went to Uruguay with. I was reminded of how God really blessed me to go on that trip. As some of you may know, it was a really hard adventure for me, where God taught me some big lessons and really stretched me and molded me. It was hard, but in the end a true blessing. Looking back at these pictures, God showed me what an amazing gift that trip was, and how He was using it to strengthen me and to give me a bigger perspective on the life outside of me. It is a big world and I was able to see a glimps of a corner. It was fabulous! I hope you enjoy the pictures and if you any problems seeing it, let me know. Click on the album below, and also there are pictures of pre-Uruguay also, if you are interested. Just go to "my photos" to see the other albums I have up. Enjoy!

Uruguay

Intimacy with my thoughts

You don't have to worry;I am always with you.
I have seen you cry and wonder and have caught your every tear.
I have held your hand through rage and anger, and brought hope to take your fear.
I have been there when the memories seem to turn to ashes,
I have been there to pick up the pieces.
I have held them in a place of healing and shown you the rays of sunshine.
I have been there in the lonely nights, when tears are your only comfort,
I have been there in the silence and heard you gasp in expectation.
I have been there on the long walks, and in the thoughts that plague your mind.
I have been there through the dreams and visions that seem like poison in the night.
I have been there through the agony, frustration and dispare,
I have held you in my arms so close and have whispered, "Do not fear."

This is my promise to you my girl, and to my every child.
I am your father and your king, the one that holds the world.
Listen to my constant breathe; find intimacy with my thoughts.
Rest in my presence and find peace for your wondering mind and heart.
You are my child and I love you more than you will ever know.
Come into my arms my Ivory girl. Come into my warm embrace

I Hate this Adventure

I hate this adventure! It is taking too long to get through, and the confussion and frustration is really annoying. I want to just come out on the other side already and know that I got through it and that I can now continue my life. I am in limbo, waiting and hoping but not knowing when the light and the end of the tunnel will shine. Where is the hope that I am looking for, and where is the satisfaction that I crave? I know it will come to an end but God only knows when that time will come. God, give me strength. God give me patience. God give me hope.

Yet another Adventure

I havn't posted on here in an eternity. Who knows if I'll be posting more regularly, but I thought that I would just put a bit of an update on my life on here, so that if someone looks at it, they will know that I still am living and didn't fall of the edge of the planet in all my crazy adventures!
I am now entering into a new adventure, one that is unlike the previous. The other day, I was talking to Maria about how I sometimes wish that I had decided to go away for school, or that I wish I was going away again. I was expressing how sometimes I wish I could just go away, and leave all the responsibilities and committments I have and just start fresh. She challenged me to pretend that I was going away and to pretend that I was starting over again in a new place. Well, to make a long story, abit shorter, I have decided to take her up on her challenge. I have decided to take start over and recharge this battery that has been over used. I am moving away, (in a sense) and am taking a step back from all responsibilities, (youth, YFC, etc.) and committments. This has been a very hard decision to make, but reflecting back on the summer, the past couple of weeks, and looking into the future, it has been made clear that I need to take some time for me and take some time to refill this cup that is bone dry.
It is an adventure. Everything can be an adventure. It is an adventure trying to figure out what to do with free time; how do I handle a schedule that has every evening open? How do occupy my time? If you know me at all, you are probably thinking, "Suzanne, you have no problem filling up your time, and you are going to have every night full within a week. In no time you will have things to do, and will feel like you don't have any free time." This is all true, but I am committing to not committing to anything for awhile. I'm just going to enjoy life, and take things as they come. I am going to try to live the first part of my moto to the fullest: Live SPAFE: SPONTANEOUS yet safe.

My Life After Outta Town

One of the girls from my Outta Town team, is putting together a newletter for our team. Each person was asked to put together an update on the past year, since it is nearing a year since we were all together. I started my update, and the entry that was intended on being 300 words, turned into this 800 word essay. I thought that I would share with you my reflection.

If I was to think of an analogy to compare this past year to, it could be compared to tobogganing. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to go tobogganing this year due to the lack of winter that I experienced, but recalling back to previous years, the memory still remains. Tobogganing is a blast and tons of fun, but at the same time a lot of work. You come to the hill that is coated with beautiful white snow, and you are all equipped for the hours of fun that you will have on that hill. You then bolt it up the hill to the top and then enjoy the ten seconds that it takes to zip over the white crest and slide to your stop at the bottom. It was almost as fantastic as a roller coaster and you are all smiles saying, “AGAIN, AGAIN!!!” You then climb back up the hill and do it again and again, but each time, the hill seems to get bigger and the flight down gets shorter. It is a lot of work, but still a lot of fun.
For me, this is very similar to my year. Outta Town was like the descent down the snow, and was a ton of fun. Coming back home was very hard to readjust, and it took a lot out of me. My true friends became obvious and reconnecting to people was very difficult. It was a very painful process trying to find purpose again and trying to find my place at home. Then God blessed me with an amazing opportunity to work for Youth For Christ for the summer. That again was like screaming on your crazy carpet. It was fantastic! I had an amazing time getting to know the kids at the center, and God gave me great satisfaction and peace throughout the summer. To end it off, my fabulous man came to visit me at the end of summer and that was marvelous!
Then once Karl left, I had to start that climb back up the dreaded mountain. Long distance with Karl became very difficult and I hit reality pretty hard! But I came to the top again and had an exquisite road trip with my darling friend Kate. We traveled across Canada for 45 days and saw God’s splendor and it was wonderful. It did go quick though and I came to the bottom of the hill again and found the dry and boring home life was back again.
I got a job working at a candle factory and it was a struggle to find satisfaction in the monotony of life. Karl came after the Christmas break and this was a testing time for our relationship. After he went back home, we went through a lot of sorting, searching and figuring. It was very, very hard and it really drained both of us and left me quite dry and exhausted. It was a struggle, but thankfully through much prayer and perseverance, God brought us through and brought me to the top of the hill.
I then cruised down the hill again and went to Uruguay, South America for a month. This was a fabulous time, but it had many of it’s own tobogganing hills, where I had many opportunities to grow, learn, be challenged and be humbled. It was a trip I’ll never forget and a time of powerful growth.
I am now at the bottom of the slope again, and am anticipating an absolutely fantastic summer ahead of me! I am turning 20 (my dream age), my dear friends who have lived in Japan for the past two years are coming home and living in my basement for the summer, and Karlos Amigos is coming to Ontario for the summer! I will hopefully get a basic student summer job that will pay for my great summer and the great year ahead of me.
In the fall, I will be going to Brock University for Child and Youth Studies. I’m not quite sure what I am going to do with that, but it will be great and I am very excited for it.
I'm sure the rest of life will be filled with tobogganing hills, mountains, slopes, and valleys. I'm excited for what God has planned and I know that the whole time, he is going to be on the back of my sled with me, enjoying, struggling and living this crazy life with me. It's going to be great!

Thought I would share this with you

So I took these pictures when I was in Victoria. Kate went to the washroom and asked me to hold her camera when she was gone. We were waiting for our boat to go whale watching. There were these great planes that were flying by, so she said if there is a good shot, take one. Well, I took a few shots, and had abit of fun. We laughed for quite awhile afterwards. It was great.