Intimacy with my thoughts

You don't have to worry;I am always with you.
I have seen you cry and wonder and have caught your every tear.
I have held your hand through rage and anger, and brought hope to take your fear.
I have been there when the memories seem to turn to ashes,
I have been there to pick up the pieces.
I have held them in a place of healing and shown you the rays of sunshine.
I have been there in the lonely nights, when tears are your only comfort,
I have been there in the silence and heard you gasp in expectation.
I have been there on the long walks, and in the thoughts that plague your mind.
I have been there through the dreams and visions that seem like poison in the night.
I have been there through the agony, frustration and dispare,
I have held you in my arms so close and have whispered, "Do not fear."

This is my promise to you my girl, and to my every child.
I am your father and your king, the one that holds the world.
Listen to my constant breathe; find intimacy with my thoughts.
Rest in my presence and find peace for your wondering mind and heart.
You are my child and I love you more than you will ever know.
Come into my arms my Ivory girl. Come into my warm embrace

I Hate this Adventure

I hate this adventure! It is taking too long to get through, and the confussion and frustration is really annoying. I want to just come out on the other side already and know that I got through it and that I can now continue my life. I am in limbo, waiting and hoping but not knowing when the light and the end of the tunnel will shine. Where is the hope that I am looking for, and where is the satisfaction that I crave? I know it will come to an end but God only knows when that time will come. God, give me strength. God give me patience. God give me hope.

Yet another Adventure

I havn't posted on here in an eternity. Who knows if I'll be posting more regularly, but I thought that I would just put a bit of an update on my life on here, so that if someone looks at it, they will know that I still am living and didn't fall of the edge of the planet in all my crazy adventures!
I am now entering into a new adventure, one that is unlike the previous. The other day, I was talking to Maria about how I sometimes wish that I had decided to go away for school, or that I wish I was going away again. I was expressing how sometimes I wish I could just go away, and leave all the responsibilities and committments I have and just start fresh. She challenged me to pretend that I was going away and to pretend that I was starting over again in a new place. Well, to make a long story, abit shorter, I have decided to take her up on her challenge. I have decided to take start over and recharge this battery that has been over used. I am moving away, (in a sense) and am taking a step back from all responsibilities, (youth, YFC, etc.) and committments. This has been a very hard decision to make, but reflecting back on the summer, the past couple of weeks, and looking into the future, it has been made clear that I need to take some time for me and take some time to refill this cup that is bone dry.
It is an adventure. Everything can be an adventure. It is an adventure trying to figure out what to do with free time; how do I handle a schedule that has every evening open? How do occupy my time? If you know me at all, you are probably thinking, "Suzanne, you have no problem filling up your time, and you are going to have every night full within a week. In no time you will have things to do, and will feel like you don't have any free time." This is all true, but I am committing to not committing to anything for awhile. I'm just going to enjoy life, and take things as they come. I am going to try to live the first part of my moto to the fullest: Live SPAFE: SPONTANEOUS yet safe.